sekalaista

i wanna pull you closer
closer still
there's nothing i wouldn't do for you
but you already know
don't you
maybe that's why you look away
i tell myself

i smile at you
crack jokes
do anything
to keep you here for just a bit longer
any excuse will do
i'm such a flirt
i can make you laugh
i know i hold that power over you
and you said that i was beautiful
slipped it really
kinda lika a misunderstanding
said it in front of everyone
i can hardly believe it
and i never felt happier
never in my sad, pathetic existance that i call life
wish i could show it to you

i don't know what's holding me back
but i do really
when it comes down to it
i'm just a coward
i'd rather live like this
than deal with it
and i am happy, really
try to convince myself
even if you're all i think of
picture of you
behind my eyelids
and you will never know
as long as i live