Summer '07

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I'm so confused, I don't know what to do, I can't keep my mind off you. And that's not helping, you do this and in a second, you're doing that. Make up your mind, I've got enough of this. Do something special, or I'll take the risk and could even destroy something beautiful. Please, I'm not ready for this, help me, help me, help me.
I've made images in my mind, and usually they've been destroyed by someone who is linked with you, sometimes even you can ruin them. But I don't whine, maybe I'm overreacting, maybe I'm jealous, maybe I'm just in love, maybe I just wanna be with you, wanna be with you through the flames of life, but are you ready for it? Hold my hand and don't let off.
I'm so confused, I don't know what to do, do you? Please, help me - I don't know what to do if I lose you, I don't even know what to do when you're not around. When I'm hanging 'round, I'm always thinking 'bout you, and I'm thinking what it would be without you, would I be thinking someone else, would I be alone in the darkness, would I be alone everywhere? You've brought the light in my life, happiness and excitement. You may not know it, but I'm addicted to your presence - I don't know what I would do without you.
When I'm alone, without you, it feels like the darkness is swallowing me, but when you come, or even call me, the darkness is gone. Please, let's talk just five minutes - I know you have to go, but do you really have to? I have so much wasted time, please, let me use it wise - With so beautiful one like you. I'm walking alone in the park, whistling away my feelings. But there's always one who I can't forget. Your image is burned down in my mind, you wanted it or not. Maybe I should call you, but I don't know what you're doing; will I interrupt you, would I make your day better? Would you want that I'd call you? Well, I'm going to take that risk.
I'm wondering what do you think; does your thoughts wander like mine; around someone 24/7 or is the someone even me? Then my mind starts to wander in the past. In the brilliant, beautiful summer. I saw you walkin' down the street, talking in the phone. You watched behind and saw me. You didn't know at that moment that next summer would be one of the best Summer ever. But, when You started talking to me, I was addicted to your voice, your smile, your laugh and to your style. We had a good time, we walked long walks in the summer, had good time and laughed, talked, anything wouldn't make those times better. But, when Summer changed to Autumn, something else changed too. Long walks were shortened, long phoneconversation were shortened; what's going on?
I'm confused, could you tell me what's going on? I wouldn't like asking a straight question what would ruin everything. But, I don't really want to ask 'cause the answer would ruin it too. I'm so freaking confused, we had so great time and fun, and then; out of nowhere - Almost everything stops. But I've noticed that you're trying to keep the small fire on. Maybe I'm overreacting, but why don't you try to make the fire even stronger? Or are you waiting me the same way I'm waiting for you? If I make something stupid, would our friendship collapse? I don't think so, but I don't want to take that risk - Someone, please help me.
Maybe I should quit trying and just wait for you? Maybe I need to take the risk and ruin something very beautiful, or make it brilliant. I take the phone in my hands and start writing, then I suddenly delete it. Then I call you, but no, I can't do it. I'm always thinking 'bout you, but when I could talk to you, no. I'm always waiting for you to start the conversation, maybe you're tired on it and maybe you're waiting me? Or maybe you just don't want to. I'm overreacting, or that's what I'd like to believe. I'm so freaking confused - And that's got to end. I'm going to buy a freaking flamethrower if I need to.
I have this feel again; I'm burning, you're ice. And I can't melt you, I've tried it too much, my fire is going out. I just need a little of your time, so that I could show you my feelings what I've kept inside me. But now, when I'm ready; you won't answer. You're hiding from me, I know it.
Maybe I just need to stop trying and extinguish my love to you.. But I don't want to, you're my only thing why I keep waiting tomorrow. My life was empty without you, but when you came into my life; it was so amazing. And now, I feel the emptiness comin' back. I try to keep it away, but I need a helping hand, could you save me?
I need you to say a simple thing, will this end or will we have a future together? I just need to know what you're up to. I'm in a freaking burning love with you, I just need to you know that before I vanish from your life. I'm just a wandering shadow in a pitch-black world.
Well, maybe my fire needs to be extinguished, and I need to stop thinking you. And maybe that's what you have tried to tell me - I need to get life. And that life is going to happen without you.
We had our time, last summer was the best time of my life - I hope that you enjoyed it as much as I did.
But, you weren't so into this thing, so I need to move on. I'd like you to know this; I won't forget you, I won't forget our time, I won't let you down, but I still need to move on. I need to get over you, I need to get a life.
Half year and I'll get a new life. New identity. But, I won't change my memories to new ones. I did everything I could, maybe it wasn't enough, maybe we weren't meant together. The flame what I had, is now extinguished. It didn't hurt as much as I did expect, it was a relaxing feel. Thank you for everything. You changed my life.
Last year was a very interesting one. I met you. Then I fell in love. But I couldn't tell you. Until now. Reaction what you gave was.. Not surprising, well, the situation went well. I'd like you to know that you started the flame, you were the only one who could've extinguish it. And thank you for that, now I can move on.


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