And I know that you're only just a human as I'm, so you could one day just walk away from me, leave me and stop caring. I've been stupid bcs I've been thinking that I don't need anybody, so that all happens.. I cut connections to other peoples, Stopped answering messages, stopped talking with others, even my family which lived to the same apartment with me. I just locked myself sometimes on my room, sometimes in the bathroom and just tried to cry quiettly. I spend all the days alone, so that's why I couldn't act normally anymore. I was so shamed about myself and felt myself such a stranger, I was more different than others. In these days, I have to say that if I could one day had even 1 real friend, I'll never let him/her go. But the most important thing is question one; Could I never be with other people naturally?
-I don't know.
Two; Why I don't catch new friends?
- Becouse I'm afraid to loose again, becouse I feel myself complete stranger and I'm afraid that peoples are trying to hurt me for a reason=They know how I feel about myself.
-I don't know.
Two; Why I don't catch new friends?
- Becouse I'm afraid to loose again, becouse I feel myself complete stranger and I'm afraid that peoples are trying to hurt me for a reason=They know how I feel about myself.
Vastaukset 2
Vanhimmat
Hi
Many people share these feelings with you. There are sore secrets and hidden treasures in everyone.
Hope you get friends, I know you will, just leave the door unlocked after you. Still, certain loneliness will always remain is us. It only means you are an individual, not the same as anybody else. Try to think this as a strength!!
Wish you all the best!
I don't know what it is but I've allways carrying some kind of shield on my heart. Maby the worst things in my past are those when I've given my everything and peoples are just throwing it away, it have allways felt the same than fysic violance to me. And I know how one word can hurt more than one punch in face. But thank you for your support. I don't know why but i can tell my feelings straight to my heart only by speaking english.. I'm weirdoo..