LSD

Valitettavsti en olis ollu siisti joskus kokeilla mut ei oo tullut ikinä vastaan mut täs olis yksi tarina sieni tripeistä:

This all happened on a cold evening in November 1999. My friends and I had spent twelve months previous to this date trying in vain to aquire some LSD.
We'd had some 'Strawberry' blotters ages before that had just fallen into our lap, and we wanted to repeat the experience. But try as we might, nobody had any. I asked anyone i thought might know, but still to no avail.

We had all but lost hope when i bumped into an old acquaintance, and asked him where i might find some acid. He shook his head, but advised us to wait another month for mushroom season to start. "Mushrooms will blow your mind," he said. We hadn't considered 'magic' mushrooms as an option, mainly because we'd heard only bad reports and horror stories about them. But armed with the knowledge that the key to a good trip was all in the set and setting, we did our research, and found out what to look for.

As soon as we thought the weather was cold enough, we started looking in a grassy field, a stone's throw from where i lived. Despite our scepticism, we hit paydirt, and a friend and i threw 20 P.Sem into a curry and ate. We went out walking and noticed some slight visual alterations, a feeling of well being and girlish giggling, which mounted and subsided in the space of four hours. Having had a thoroughly pleasant afternoon, we decided to pick a more substantial quantity for the approaching weekend.

The next night, four of us gathered at a friends house who's parents where away for the weekend, and threw 200 mushrooms into a pan to make tea. After drinking a cup full of the earthy concoction each, we sat back and waited for the effects to take hold. In about one hour i was acting the clown and laughing hysterically while one of my friends complained that nothing was happening and said he was going to have some more. I followed him into the kitchen in tears of laughter..he was going to have MORE?? For some reason i saw fit to join him in a second cup, God knows why. Believe that i ingested approximately 50 'shrooms. After another 30mins of rolling on the floor, laughing and talking to the house plants, i announced that i wanted to go out side.

I took a stool from the kitchen and sat out on the patio, watching the trees swaying at the bottom of the garden. I felt very peaceful. As i watched, suddenly the dark silhouette of the trees spread like a fractal across the cloudy sky above me. Where before there was only streetlamp-tinged cloud cover, there was now a night sky as you would expect to see from the suface of the moon. Bright, blazing stars, the rings of Jupiter and all manner of unnameable heavenly bodies, shone above me so real it was as if i could touch them. My pure amazement snapped me out of the hallucination, but my attention was then immediately drawn to a conifer tree a few feet infront of me.

I remember being transfixed by it's incredible 'design' and thinking to myself what and amazing piece of art it was. Then the pattern of its pale green leaves leapt out at me and filled the air. I looked around, and it was as if the pattern were behind my eyes. I felt very calm, very warm. I felt as if there was a presence; somebody or something, around me, like i was being embraced. I could, in some sense, see a figure in to my right, like a dark shadow surrounded by rainbow colours.

I began to hear a voice, one which i felt was very familiar, repeating in my head over and over saying: 'Let me show you...Let me show you.' At this point (still feeling totally relaxed) i decided go and sit on my own at the bottom of the garden. I got a plastic bag to sit on as the grass was wet, and did just that.

What happened next will stay with me for the rest of my life (and beyond?). I'm looking up at the sky and watching the trees and i felt a 'wave' pass through me. It was like a wave of deep, DEEP overwhelming emotion, pure feeling. The only way i can describe it is to say it was like being born. When i next looked around i felt like Adam.

Everything was blazing with life. Just screaming with the triumph, the impossible FACT of existence. The colours and the shimmering intensity and this high pitched screaming which seemed to be coming from the lawn. The garden had become Eden. I thought about the mushrooms, and how they had been growing just across the road from me all my life and how inevitable this experience was..mushrooms were there to be eaten. That's were God was hiding!!

This realisation heralded further revelation. I saw the garden breaking up, everything was becoming waves. The world around me was making this incredible music as it occillated. The house was no longer solid, it was a collection of vibrations, bricks and mortar weaving from side to side untill it shattered into vibrations. The whole garden, the whole Universe(!) was a symphony. I could 'see' in physics.

Now at this point 'I' as in who 'I' thought 'I' was, came apart. My personallity just unslotted. There was no panic or fear. I just let go, and felt myself 'coming up'. The sensation was strangely similar to surfacing from swimming deep underwater. The next 'sensation' (for want of more than a word) was of total and utter 'wholeness'.A unification so DEEP AND UNIMAGINABLY COMPLETE that there was no other view point. It was the FINAL perspective, and 'I'was gone.

I became aware that time is an illusion created by ourselves. That everything has already happened and that our ego's work by narrowing our perception to a thin steam of events. That consciousness can be contained in the ripples in water or leaves rustling in the wind. That the whole universe was conscious.

At some point during this, two of my friends had come to join me at the bottom of the garden. I asked them what they wanted to know. I felt that i could 'know' anything. My friend turned his head and a star could have been born and died in the time it took him to face me full on.

I said to him that i didn't want to leave this place. 'Why?' he said. 'Because you cant.' i replied.I realised 'death' was impossible, that all we lose when we 'die' is the illusion of ourselves as seperate from everything else.Our own personal lie. This freaked him out and he left. I remember thinking at this point, "He's just afraid."

And then i realised that we were all afraid and that is what knits us into the confines of our day to day ego state, fear, denial and the resulting need for control. My other friend (my closest friend) stayed with me, but later said that being with me at the bottom of he garden was 'scary' because 'I wasn't there'.

The next stage of the trip (i had droppped down from what i now know was the Clear-light) consisted of vivid hallucinations of strange 'alien' objects that span infront of me in incredible detail and realism, and visions of myself as Christ.

I never had a religious upbringing and no previous interest in Christianity but suddenly the whol;e Christ 'thing' made perfectly beautiful sense to me. We are ALL the sons/daughters of God. Our 'sin' is our denial of the reality that we are all one, in exchange for a degree of self will (Godhood) so we may write our own 'stories' ie our lives.

There were strange noises all around me and then, suddenly, a very short v.painful sensation, as i felt my personality 'slot' back into place. It was like the lids being put back on all of my mental jars.Every experince in my life that formed my personallity.Immediately i was back in the garden to relative normality.

Although the whole garden looked like a Van Gogh painting (whose work i now think is genius) I went back inside the house in a state of electrified euphoria. I told everyone that i'd had the most amazing experience of my life. I had. Then i began to get a rush of thoughts and information, books i had read, things i had heard people say all came together in perfect sense.I remember thinking "how can i live my life knowing what i know?.I will never be the same."

I felt like i had a hole in my head and everything was coming through. i retained a supreme clarity of vision..i could see through things in the sense of what is true like never before. Later that night i cried from the sheer beauty of it all.

For weeks afterwards i ran around telling anyone who would listen what had happened to me.I can totally sympathise with the God-struck evengelist!!. I told a friend of mine who was interested in LSD culture about it and he couldn't believe it.

He said i was virtually quoting the Tibetan Book of the Dead. Bear in mind i had no knowledge of Leary/Huxley/Buddism or any of the surrounding culture. But when i borrowed these books from him they blew my mind. Literally. I had to stop reading them because they were triggering the experience again, even weeks after i was experiencing visions.

I was seeing patterns and meaning everywhere and in everything. The whole thing changed me as a person. It's made me a better person, I think. What i learned in summation, is that we are all one and that we must learn to open up to each other to let the devine force of love/communication/harmony run between us as efficiently as possible, unhindered by the selfish ego. I believe that the fact that this kind of experience is illegal is unsettling food for thought...

Anyone else who knows they saw god. I'm with you.

Miksi turhaan lsd:tä ? Koe lääkkeiden seuraava kehitysaste, pyydä ystävääsi soittamaan sinulle piipaa-auto ja sanomaan autoon, että olet jo kaksi päivää hokenut samaa sanaa. Olkoon se vaikka kehitys. Hoe sanaa vielä autossakin. Eiköhän tule ahteriin lääkkeitä riittävästi. Voi tosin olla että sitten et enää muuta sanaa osaakaan - mutta haittaako tuo, olet saanut kokea, miltä nykyiset lääkkeet tuntuvat.
Lsd on kyllä turvallisempi vaihtoehto.