it's been a while now, since i last wrote to you. and i'm so glad i finally could make and keep my head... and not fall back, like i did many times. it would be so easy to write to you again. i know your email by heart. but i'm not going to do that again, not to you... and most of all not to myself. it's been quite a ride this far but now it's time to let the sleeping dogs lay.
everything is starting to look a lot clearer, after so many months in this mist of first infatuation, then love and after that the desperation and pain. they have now all gone away. all those strong feelings that i had for you. but still, somewhere in side i know the truth. i told you i would not forget and that i would think about you. and i still do. almost every day. but not the same way i used to... still you were special to me and you always will be.
and that's the reason i couldn't be a friend to you. at first, i thought i could walk over my feelings and seddle for just a friendship... and then i just knew... it wasn't a possibility. not with you. so now i go on my way without you and that still makes me a little bit sad. you are a wonderful, warm man and i would have wanted to get to know you better. share things with you, it's so rare to find a person who can truely understand. and who you have so much alike with. it makes me sad to lose all that, too.
as sad as it is, it has also made a huge difference in my life, in my thoughts and perspective to life. i'm not ever gonna be so black and white as i was before i met you. all that happened has changed me so much... hopefully for the better.
no i still need to get a grip of what i was left with. a lot of unfinished matters to handle, a lot of questions still to answer... a lot of changes to make. but now, i have all the time in the world to make my life the way i want and need it to be. thanks to you, i know i can't seddle for anything less... and i know i deserve more.
probably you won't ever even read this text, but it doesn't matter. makes all the diffrence to me just to write it down. it's kinda like a declaration of independence to me... or survival. glad this day finally came, i can say all these things and know in my heart that they are true.
and i will never forget you.
everything is starting to look a lot clearer, after so many months in this mist of first infatuation, then love and after that the desperation and pain. they have now all gone away. all those strong feelings that i had for you. but still, somewhere in side i know the truth. i told you i would not forget and that i would think about you. and i still do. almost every day. but not the same way i used to... still you were special to me and you always will be.
and that's the reason i couldn't be a friend to you. at first, i thought i could walk over my feelings and seddle for just a friendship... and then i just knew... it wasn't a possibility. not with you. so now i go on my way without you and that still makes me a little bit sad. you are a wonderful, warm man and i would have wanted to get to know you better. share things with you, it's so rare to find a person who can truely understand. and who you have so much alike with. it makes me sad to lose all that, too.
as sad as it is, it has also made a huge difference in my life, in my thoughts and perspective to life. i'm not ever gonna be so black and white as i was before i met you. all that happened has changed me so much... hopefully for the better.
no i still need to get a grip of what i was left with. a lot of unfinished matters to handle, a lot of questions still to answer... a lot of changes to make. but now, i have all the time in the world to make my life the way i want and need it to be. thanks to you, i know i can't seddle for anything less... and i know i deserve more.
probably you won't ever even read this text, but it doesn't matter. makes all the diffrence to me just to write it down. it's kinda like a declaration of independence to me... or survival. glad this day finally came, i can say all these things and know in my heart that they are true.
and i will never forget you.
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Vanhimmat
The one you just wrote should be so happy to have you. Im`so so so sorry that the things aren`t like that in the real life. Best wishes for you beautiful. I Hope you eventually find what you are looking for!
love of my life, so with that i will live with, i know i will not have anyone else....
Life can burn a deep hole straight through angel`s heart. Maybe black and white are only colours of gods. Just concentrate on healing your feelings and try to enjoy your life my darling. Death harvester all our sorrows after everything have burn till dust. I hope you can feel my healing whisper from otherside of existentiality.
PS: From reaper with love.
The colours of gods must leave the kitchen now. Remember me with the sweatest time of your life. Don`t hold on to your past too tight. Life can be full of surprises if you give it a chance.
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at You. I´m not shore if it´s me You talking about, but I´ll try anyway. It´s just sounds so familiar. Too familiar. If it´s You, You have the right to know, that I´ve seen this message and I´m agree with you. It´s the right thing to do and let go. Time is not right. It will not be right in this life. Maybe in next life. Who knows?
Before I met You, I had lost my faith in women. I thought I will never meet someone who sees who I Am. Then You came along and changed all this. The hardest part when You meet the soulmate, when You love someone, is let go. It was a test for both of us and we both passed. This knowledge, that You excist somewhere, is enough for me. That´s more than I could ever imagine before I met You. Do You know what could have been even harder than this situation now? It´s to know somewhere deep in my heart that You are out there and never get a chance to meet You. Thank You for being what You are. I will always carry You in my heart. Silently, secretly,
infinitly...
this is not for me.. : ( Who will make reservations for the next life?
have lots of things to do. There´s lot of changes need to be started and I have to do this alone. And it´s probably not for You. If it was for You, You would have recocnize me. But still, I can always gaze in to the past and think about what could have been... You or not thank You for the beautiful memories. I will always cherish them.
my dear. :)
will marry traffic lights. At least lights know when to show green or red light. ;-I
was the only one i have written to this chain. it is from a woman to a man. and that's about all i'm gonna say. no need to get feedback, i will move on and the time, when i wanted to get some explanasions or some comfortig words... well, it did pass a long time ago.
i will always remember, i will always love
but it's behind. and there it will stay. maybe in next life? who knows... got a lot of this one left, no need to think that far.
and that's ... all.