Not anymore. Or we never did?
Still you come to my door, never knock, just rush into my day without asking.
It would be easy to come up against you at a street or a market, but when you initiatively ask how I'm doing, it makes me feel weird. What are you running after? (Actually I do know what you want from me, but it doesn't matter, I'm not going to go down that road again.)
It's not misery I feel, nor loneliness or longing.
Just being nice to a person I once felt for isn't so easy. Well, it might be for someone who's fluent with these kind of things, but not for me. I haven't talked to people for ages. With people I mean acquaintances, I do have talked with my workmates and family, but that's pretty much it.
And I don't even like that polite chit-chat that people do. I'd rather just stay quiet, if I have nothign meaningfull to say.
My point? I dont't have a clue. Just felt the need to pour this out, then forget it, for good, if you just let me do it.
Still you come to my door, never knock, just rush into my day without asking.
It would be easy to come up against you at a street or a market, but when you initiatively ask how I'm doing, it makes me feel weird. What are you running after? (Actually I do know what you want from me, but it doesn't matter, I'm not going to go down that road again.)
It's not misery I feel, nor loneliness or longing.
Just being nice to a person I once felt for isn't so easy. Well, it might be for someone who's fluent with these kind of things, but not for me. I haven't talked to people for ages. With people I mean acquaintances, I do have talked with my workmates and family, but that's pretty much it.
And I don't even like that polite chit-chat that people do. I'd rather just stay quiet, if I have nothign meaningfull to say.
My point? I dont't have a clue. Just felt the need to pour this out, then forget it, for good, if you just let me do it.
Vastaukset 6
Vanhimmat
*meaningful (I'm so poor with this kind of easy spelling)
go up that road and learn to know me/let me know you? Or really I have that feeling we have know each other a loooooong looong time before..
:]
know who people are?
are, I mean if you really know yourself .. then .. you can learn to know others too..
Of course it happens, sometimes, but it's not just some random person you can pick from the street and get to know him/her.
If there are two too different people, with different interests, different values, different lifestyles: It's not going to match.
The world once threw a wrong person at my road, a long time ago, and it's the memory that haunts me sometimes, that's all.
I'll get over it, again, it just takes a while.
*Goes on wandering to find a right one..*
finska?