Say goodbye to who I was

Is it all false?
Was it ever true?

I am ugly, fat and discusting
Did I change? Did I get old and fat at 22?
Did I use to be beautiful and smart?

I hate myself
He hates me
I am an horroble person

I have to take another step
Climb another mountain
I just want to fall asleep

Would I be upset if I did not wake-up?
Would anyone care?
Besides my mum and sister

I was never anything
I will never be anything
All I am is an ugly, fat little girl
And I will only get worse

I am childish, boring, stupid
There is nothing positive about me
This is me now, the most discusting person you can imaging
Both inside and out

All I wonder and want to know
was it always like this?
Was I just blind to how horroble, ugly and idiot I am ?

I let you take over, I’m going to leave this body now
I can not bear to feel it, or look in the mirror anymore
I am collapsing
Say goodbye to who I was
That girl is gone

I will make you skinny,
then at least you will have one good asset

What gives power and energy to other people
Will make you feel weak
What makes them feel weak
Will make you strong and powerful

It’ll be ok
I will be your mentor
I will take care of you
Don’t worry my love

You can rely on me
I will change everything