Demons

There are demons in my mind
screaming my name
tears in my eyes
easing the pain
Where did I go wrong
I ended up like this.

I'm sorry for all the lies
that I let out of my mouth
I was too proud to let you
have a look inside of my mind
I was afraid of being abandoned
I lost my balance in life
And now I´m lost and
can´t find a way back home

I hid my tears behind a smile
I hid my emotions telling you
everything but the truth
lie after a lie
and now everything is crumbling down

I built walls too high
and it´s so difficult to
break them down now
time after time
I told myself that I´m fine
knowing it was all just a lie

people think they know me
know what I feel
if they knew why didn´t they
do anything to make it stop?

I hid my tears behind a smile
I hid my emotions telling you
everything but the truth
lie after a lie
and now everything is crumbling down

Dear family
read this letter
and I´m already gone
I´m tired of hearing
promises of a better day
which never came true