tällänen runonpätkä..

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Löysin tälläisen runonpätkän, jonka kirjoitin kun mulla oli mennyt poikki ensirakkauden kanssa
ja tuska oli vielä(kin) kova.. ajattelin jakaa sen mudenkin kanssa, se oli vaikeeta aikaa, mutta
tässä ollaan, vielä elossa ja tuska meni jo pois =)

This poem is perhaps the most intensive I've ever written.. I wrote it approx. 1,5 years ago,
when I still had really strong feelings for my ex, my first love..
tell me what you think..


Here's how much I miss you...

I sit here, all alone
feeling so cold, right down to the bone
Months ago when you went away
I told myself : it's allright, she'll come back one day.
But what I dodn't know was that i wouldn't know when,
and now I curse myself for what I should've known then :

Instead of being supportive and letting you go
I should've held on and simply say "No."

But still I wonder "Would that have helped?"
Or would it have left us in problems which with we couldn't have dealt..
In some ways I wouldn't even care if it was so,
all that I can think of is : I shouldn't have let you go.

Sometimes I feel allright, but mostly I'm depressed
and it is about due time I confessed,
I wish the best for you, but for myself too,
so there it is, I gave you a clue..

( Here's what it means )
I'm truly tired of living without you, all alone
and I'm begging you to save me, just to come home.

I quess what I'm afraid of is that you'll leave me behind
and so I'm on my knees crying 'till I'm blind.
I can't stop my fears, I don't know how,
you are the only person on this planet who can help me now.

The pain and the emptiness in me is getting stronger,
I really don't believe I can take this much longer.
You can call me a romantic, you can call me weak,
but without you and your love I can't be complete.

Sometimes I'm happy, your memory is slender,
but every cursed time something makes me remember :

The smell of your blonde hair when we went to bed,
the way that you looked at me and the things that you said.
The way you grabbed me and held my hand,
things for this summer we had already planned.

Do you remember when I came home late in the night.
You ran to me, crying, and held me so tight.
You didn't know where I'd been and called all my friends,
asked them about me but got to no ends.
You felt really bad, you waited all night,
and when I finally came home, everything was allright.

That's how I feel now, alone and so sad,
I keep trying and trying but can't help feeling bad.
If you came home now, came home tonight,
I would be complete and everything would be allright..

and that's how much i miss you...

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